A downer?

So, I’ve recently been in the process of sending out applications to a load of law firms because I’m trying to land the dream job at a corporate firm – it is no joke when they say it is a dream!!

There are days when you look at your application and think it is the greatest thing in the world and then there are the days when you realise it is a total pile of rubbish. Unfortunately for me, after I got some feedback on my application today, I realised how big of a pile of rubbish it really was. I sat for hours editing my application in the hope that I would finish with a gleaming piece about myself however, here I am, at 23:53 listening to sad love songs, thinking about how disappointing my application still is.

The process of an application is not at all easy. If you are the kind of person that likes to talk about your successes and accomplishments, you will have a field day filling out an application, even more so if you have an amazing way with words. I, on the other hand, am the type of person who is seemingly incapable of talking about my successes to feed my ego. For some reason, I lose all ability to construct a sentence when I try and talk about anything remotely positive about my achievements.

You see, it is not just a case of telling the firm what you have done but it is why you have done it, why it was something you feel is worth talking about, what you learnt from it and why you are now such an incredible person because of it!

I keep telling myself it will be ok. There will be a day when all of this application stuff just CLICKS but 7/8 rejected applications later, I am still struggling.

I felt like I wanted to share this because, no matter how much we might sit here and think ‘wow that person has a great job at this amazing organisation’ it is more than likely that it was a hard slog for them to get there.

I am determined to make it one day, I want to make it one day and I WILL make it one day… I just hope that day is sooner rather than later. I apologise for the lack of coherent thought and productivity of this blog; I just needed a break before I started crying to ‘Dilemma’ by Nelly and Kelly.

To all those students staying up through the hard run of the night, I applaud you. To anyone waking up for a crazy shift, or anyone awake in any part of the world, good morning, good afternoon or good night.

Here is my one motivation for anyone who might need it or knows someone that might need it:

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All love xoxo